hey shyon, welcome back (for now <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" /> )
I hope you will feel better soon, and find out what you think is missing in your life <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/up.gif" alt="" />
but know: you have more than you think, but you'll only realise this when you have lost it.
so don't lose it!