mobbed why and what minority group were you that enfused mobbing.
Because I am different. I cast complex concepts, theories of my own and I'm infamous for "thinking around edges".
My classic is my theory I made up as a early teenager , suggesting that there are different "layers" of athmosphere in the air - because I noticed at times some clouds travelling into different directions than others. And some of them did overlap one another. Years later I found out that this is common knowledge in Meteorology, and nothing special. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" />
In the third class at school, we had a test about how to define mammals. I wrote - according to what we had learned - that all mammals don't produce eggs. AndI added: Except the australian animal with this beak we call in Germany "Schnabeltier" (my dictionary calls it a "duckbill platypus").
About that time I was getting into Dinosaurs and Fossils and made up a small exhibition in our class. Remeber, this was my third class at school ... I was still young then (under 10 years, I suppose, but can't remember exactly). I was well ahead of all the others, casting my own theories and thinking simply different. No-one understood me.
No-one understood me, and that's why I got "mobbed". They treated me like a fool, because I didn't think like the others do. I still don't today, although I've become more "practical" nowadays. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" />
I call my way of thinking nowadays "cross-linking thinking", because all of my theories - the image of the world that is created within my head - consits of many, small, often tiny mosaic-pieces or puzzle-pieces. I put them together in my head - I think that's the way everyone does about his or her environment - and form some sort of "big picture".
I was seen as a fool, because I thought in different categories than anybody else. I wished I had had people around me with which I could discuss things in such ways at that time, but I was alone (as it seems), and absolutely shy. I had great problems to freely talk to others, (partly because I knew that they thought of me like a fool, but also because I din't know how to estimate others), was totally shy. I liked older girls in our school, one or two classes ahead, because they were more sensible and serious and "mature" than the rest of my class, but of course they ignored me, because they were - of course - looking to older boys, not younger ones. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" />
Well, that's how I see my self today. Many things in my memory get slowly blurred, because I don't want to mess with them again. They are history for me now. But anyway - they influenced my way of thinking about others and myself.
The greatest "jump" in my own development (or evolution <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" /> ) was only a few years ago, when I decided to concentrateon spirituality again (it had always been "in the back of my mind"). ffom then on, I received many "tasks" to work with my inner self and my past. It still goes on, and is interesting and serious at the same time.
I still am no person for parties and such things, I prefer culture, museums, quietness, nature.
I've rarely posted my so-called "poems" here "on board", but they are the best way to learn how I feel. If you wish so, I might post some here.
That's probably the most personal posting about my self I have ever written here, and I wish it could be the last one. I know my limitations, but I don't want to expose them that much mowadays. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" /> (Other than in my early "poems". <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" /> )
Alrik.