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Byblos - "The world has no moral value, lives for sin and for pleasure of the flesh, and it sickens me and God."


So god gave humans and animals reproductive organs why? So he can be sickend by the people who do it for pleasure?

Sounds like giving a child some sweets and telling them you're never allowed to eat them unless you swear before god in the bonds of matrimonial sweet eating -

I'm an atheist so I don't have any of your beliefs, nor would I attempt to tell you god doesn't exist etc. etc. etc.....each to his own.

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Give up sin and live forever, the perfect covenant.


What is this sin? Sex out of marriage? Plus I thought your god was forgiving...

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Unless you have what I have, A friendship with God, you cannot understand how I feel.


Well yes...I would guess so. So in short...we can't help in any way because your beliefs have imprisioned you, it would seem. But that's not how'd you see it at all so I'll leave it at that

also, this thread is not about religion, it's about self-confidence - and clearly your 'problems' stem from your religious beliefs that you can't do a, b or c or you'll end up in hell, or something. Perhaps if you met a girl with beliefs in line with yours? That's possible....