Jag..
I would choose her company over heaven. I would give my eyes to feel her presense.
As for my silence, I have thoughts and thingds to say but my mouth will not let me say them.
I cannot talk to anyone, the onyl family I have is my Dad and this is largely his doing!
She s gone, she called me last night to make it final! My problem is I have never had anything or anyone before her and now shes gone and the promise of eternal life doesnt make up for that... ID rather not exist then be without her.
And its not like I didn something wrong, I didnt do anything wrong to her, I havnt done anything to make God angry. I just feel like another jobe. Is he allowing all of this suffering just to prove a point!? Well whatever his popint is proven, You can take away my heart and ill still say God is good. But then here I am miserable.
