@Übereil : I'm quite astonished that you write you don't talk that much (or have I misunderstood this ?), because here you are quite talkative.
It's because here I have time to figure out what I want to say, and then even more time to figure out how to say it. In real life I have about half a second, then somebody else hav said something that casts the situation in an entirelly new light, so what I was about to say just doesn't fit in anymore.
And I allso have no/minor problems talking to my friends. Security, I guess. I've allways been afraid of doing wrong, most times too afraid to dare to do right. With my friends I don't possess that fear (it feels like no matter what I say, it can't be wrong. That's how it feels here too).
I've gained some sort of respect in earlier times because I was still and quiet most of the times. I listened more than I was talking, and it turned out when I *was* talking, I had something more or less important to say.
This is how I've seen myself too, but in school when I say something I consider more or less important, the whole conversation stops, and pepole don't look at me. One reason I'm allways quiet in school (getting better though, starting to point out useless and secure things, one day I might even dare to say not so pointless and not so secure things. And probablly that day is like two days before we graduate, and I'll never see them again <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" />). I'm allso working on not careing about pepoles view on me. It was much easier as a kid, you just acted, you never thought abnout the concequenses <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/disagree.gif" alt="" />.
Übereil
