For what it's worth, I know how you feel, Chris. I have been there too. And I know many people have been there.
Then know that it is the people like us that do change the world. We don't belong to the masses, and deep inside, we don't really want to, no matter how much they push us. Don't lose your individuality, man, don't give in. Be unique.
*EDIT* It's good to get it off your chest like this. We don't mind, really - speak your mind (but keep it within forum rules! - had to say that). Try some poetry. Don't be afraid of what might come out, but keep in mind that the darkness does not get a hold off you - you want to get it out, not let it be a confirmation of what you think you are. Worked for me.
