Here you go, OP:
https://forums.larian.com/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=652913&gonew=1#UNREAD
That's where this post belongs.

Unless, that is, you just really needed a post dedicated to yourself where people were more likely to respond to you specifically instead of your ideas getting lost in a thread full of hundreds of parroted comments.

I don't want to fall to bits 'cos of excess existential thought.