She, and by extension, the Absolute, don't understand why you don't transform.
I don't think this part is true, but I honestly can't prove that to you. Other interactions with the tadpole seem to suggest the Absolute is the shadow magic controlling the tadpole, but maybe not then?
As I understand it, the Absolute is tricking all the cultists into believing that the Absolute is a god. The Absolute, as
knows exactly what is happening.
You don't transform because the process was interrupted.
