Private Message excerpt (PM) sent to me on 21st of June 2003:
And - I guess I can tell you - I got gossip pm's about you.
That you're a control freak, that you aren't that nice, that you use ppl,..
Control freak? Yes, I am one <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/biggrin.gif" alt="" /> - no problem with this quotation
I'm not that nice? Probably, I don't like sweet talk - sincerity, trustworthiness and genuineness are my aims, not popularity at all costs. If I say something, I mean it, even if I'm wrong - I need this to trust others, even trust others to settle disagreements with me personally - or agree to disagree <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" /> or even apologise if I realised my error.
[color:"yellow"]I use people[/color]: Well, I take this very seriously and feel very confused and unpleasantly surprised. As I have no further 1st hand statement who could feel this way, I decided to choose this public approach: [color:"yellow"]Please - you who feel/have felt this way - PM me[/color], so I know were I was misunderstood and can put things straight. As I personally dislike and detest manipulations highly, you can imagine I never intended to use anyone.
Gossip/rumours of this kind (using people) are like cobwebs IMO, they entangle sincere communication and lead to a poisoned atmosphere of distrust (at least in my case).
I prefer to be on good terms with a few exceptions (continuous spam / controversial / provoking / biased / rascist / sexist... statements from some people, now and then) - then I'll continue to express my opinion openly as I have done before.
Thank you in advance.
Kiya
