Sir konmehn -- is that pronounced con-man? -- while your fear of judgement for being a high fantasy nerd may haunt you for the rest of your life, some people enjoy the /unusually/ silly. Your insistence about how out of place it is is a compliment.
I would hate to step into a bleak world of industrialism even in my free time. One characterised by deeming anything not profitable childlike and hence undesirable for adults.
Tolkien was an insufferable tree hugger. One, with no enforcement of heteronormativity among elves. Even defining love free of the amatonormative.
How silly!
