Obviously you're not going to outright die or turn into a mindflayer.
Are you quite sure? It wouldn't surprise me in the slightest that if you've begged, borrowed and stolen, exhausted all options, You turn into a mindflayer. That's the plot.
One of the YOutubers, eitehr Fextra or WOlfHeart, said, that the more tadpoles you insert the more dead your brain tissue will look, so I'm pretty sure, putting tadpoles into your brain, is exactly, what they mean.
