I'm having a hard time wanting to play the game right now. Karlach is literally the only straight forward, genuinely good character. Despite her heart condition, I chose to romance her. Now, I can understand that life isn't always happy endings, but if someone chooses to stay with Karlach to the end, whether as a mindflayer or going to Avernus with her, that ending needs to have been shown...to completion.
While it's true, real life often clobbers you on the head and offers you no closure as to why or a way to fix the clobbering, but this is a game...and one we paid for. We are looking to *escape* hum drum real life and experience stories and outcomes different to the world we inhabit.
I brought my moral code into the game with me. So I guess I'm not a role player. I would feel horrid if I courted a Shadowheart or Laezel instead because I already told Karlach that I wanted her. That would be betraying her. I can't do that. So now I know I'm on a ride with no ending. I will chose to go to Avernus with her or possibly turn into a mindflayer to stay by her side (if that's even an option). But either way, there's no closure to show me how our lives turned out. Sigh...it kills the desire to play the game.
