I don't know if someone already mentioned my following sentences... But this was the most annoying thing regarding in game decisions for me

why must someone become an illithid why is there no dialogue option like "no we will find a way to win without becoming a tentacle monster"?

It just feels wrong to become the one thing you are working not to become from the start of the game.

Yes ofc you can let Orpheus go for it AFAIK but he is for me too innocent to go this way right after he got his freedom. Feels like a death sentence if I give him this burden. (just from a good playthrough PoV)

Is it just me or does it really feel wrong?