Im gonna try again with a new character. but it sucks that my first blind experience was this bad, since you only get one of it. Im already gonna know the consequence of most actions and everything i do will be biased. i remember i had similar issues with another larian game, divinity original sin. game was very overwhelming, while having underwhelming explanations and tutorials...
anyway you basically have to play the game first, make terrible mistakes, and then start over fresh with a new character with your new knowledge. clearly the game fails at guiding the player into getting started appropriately. which is sad and i hope it will be fixed. they really should focus on this instead of making new origins or whatever.