And after her emotional outburst following Gortash's death, I realized that either I kill her in act 1 (which first requires turning her into a freak with mods), or every single playthrough will end with me going to Avernus with her - which isn't great for roleplay. So all three female companions ended up being disappointments. I'll try romancing Jaheira this time. Idk, is she romanceable?
No. I'd say it would be great for roleplay if you played a character who's opinions and preferences differed from your own, but at this point it reads like you just don't like Shadowheart (which is fine) and are looking for more reasons not to like her. Although I am still surprised that with your standards for what is loyal or risky, you are ok with Astarion - or even Gale.
