Thanks guys - no the question was not rethorical, more an opinion or deduction, that you confirmed
The heap of paper was rethorical - I am quite sure that it is "normal", just a way of indicating, what is happening to me <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/winkwink.gif" alt="" />
I have no idea what kind of story I would start trying - but, I admit, the virus caught me - to my own surprise
And I had no idea about the abundance of material and advice available, nor of the multitude of fanfic or other - how do I say that? I don't want to say "unprofessional" or "amateur", maybe I can say "uncommercial"? Without hurting anybody's feelings unintentionally and undeservedly? - literature.